1 day, 19 hours...

1 DAY 19 HOURS...so if that just didn't make the butterflies turn into birds.  I am getting SO, So, so...well I really don't know what I am getting.  I know I have said this many times, but it is all these emotions that I am feeling and trying to keep them in check, I do want to say is very difficult at times.  I know that in the past few days I have gone through moments that I really don't know how to explain. Sitting and thinking I will just burst into tears, then I will start giggling, then unbelievable butterflies, and then PaNiC.  This is one of the craziest roller coasters I have ever been on, and I LOVE roller coasters.  This one is just that the tracks are being built as I ride and I just don't know if I am going through a tunnel or a loop 'd loop.
I have to say though I AM figuring out one thing.  GOD is in control.  The past couple days there were things that were popping up that I was letting fog the big picture.  I had a wonderful friend tell me that every once in a while God has to remind us that ultimately he is in control.  You know what?!?  HE IS?  Funny I have to be reminded of that? ;) The best thing I did was give that to God and let him take my burdens, and he showed me that when I give it to him he will provide.  You know he has always said that, but I guess I have to be shaken a little harder to actually listen.  Guess you could say I am a little bullheaded. 
So we are down to the nitty gritty.  E-mails have been sent for our flight confirmations, the airline has been called only a million times to verify things.  The TSA website has been checked for prohibited items and we have packed most of the luggage without taking the kitchen sink.  Now it is time to see if we can't try and get some sleep before we leave. 
I want to thank you all for reading and we will keep sharing.

4 Days 20 hours

So today was a tough day.  First last night we got a call that Uncle Junior was in the hospital, with some form of pancreatitis and his levels were through the roof.  So trying to go to bed was hard.  We got up this morning and it was a whorlwind of a day.  I did have a great conversation with Allie Broderick this morning and released a lot of uneasiness that I had with the trip.  Nana and Pappo Ruff came up today and spent time with our little hero.  Bringing lots of hugs and kisses, and gifts to spoil him they spent most of the day with him and I was so thankful.  I really had missed them too and it was great to see Blye play and have fun with them.  Since we have pulled him out of school I feel terrible that he doesn't get to see his friends all the time and I know that we both are feeling the isolation become overwhelming.  The great thing is I have talked to his teacher and we are going to go up to the school on Friday and see all the kids and say goodbye.  I hope that it all goes well and I hold it together.  Back to the day being tough, I have just really started feeling the emotional stress.  I was having trouble with getting all the stuff with our hotel worked out the last couple days and it finally came together this morning.  The weird thing was the stress seemed to not lift as much as I wanted. My Dad did call and let me know too that Junior is doing ok and they think that his galbladder is the culprit and they are going to remove it.  I think that I can sum it all up with a famous phrase that a good friend and I used to say when you felt overwhelmed..."To much chicken!"  Tomorrow will be better, I know it, I just need to not let it all get to me.  So here's to 4 days and 20 hours...    

5 Days 19 hours...

So here we are sitting on the couch after another day has flown past us.  Suitcases are starting to take up residence in the living room and a little boy is about to go crazy everytime one gets packed.  Me well every time I pick something up to pack it, all I can think about is what will our life reveal in these upcoming 2 weeks and really wonder what we are in for.  God, has a plan and trusting him has put me on my knees alot.  I want Blye's life to be better.  The thing is I am trying to not take off with these grand ideas of what his life could be like when we do this.  Am I expecting to much?  It is so hard to say that if I could just pick one thing.  What would it be?  To make his life easier that is all I pray for.  He is the most wonderful little being that has graced our lives.  When times are great he smiles, even when they are tough he still smiles.  So on Blye's philosophy in life, smile a lot, love with your all, and give the best hugs you can.  So, with all this anxiety that I am having with packing bags, getting through the trip, trying to finailze the details, I need to remember that it is in God's hands and I need to trust in him.  So off to bed, with another day and 5 days and 19 hours to go when we step on a plane and reach the stars.

14 Days...

14 Days... and I am scared and excited.  We went to Sydney this weekend to pick up some things for the trip.  Friday I started not feeling well and turned into more sick as the weekend progressed. Blye has started with the lower half of things that you really don't want to have to deal with, and he has now progressed into the congested nasal stuff I have had.  Now I think that Gary is dealing with it too. I lysoled and bleached all surfaces I could, but I think it will be an on going process.  The good news is we have 14 days to kick this and I am going to try my hardest to kick this in the butt.  Look out germs we are on the war path.  All I know is we have to get better.  Please God make us well.

26 Days ?!?

Where has all the time gone?  I can't believe that we are so close.  The list is starting to get checked off.  Airline Tickets-check, Hotel Reservations-check, Money Conversion for procedure-in process.  WoW!  In 26 days we leave to change our lives forever.  You know I was thinking the other day (ya I know scary huh? Me? Think?) I keep saying that this one day will change our lives forever, and really it is not the day.  That day is just like any other day in our life, it is what we will take from what happens that day and will be truly grateful for the rest of our lives.  Who would have ever thought that a small town in Colorado would hold a little boy so high to reach the stars.  I know for a fact that this is a place that I want to be.  My family is loved and we love this community.  I know that this is short, but I just wanted to share my thoughts